Love and Hate

I missed you
Once.
Your absence docked
like a spaceship on a new planet
Voyager is what I was

Not anymore

Used to be the wannasee before my eyes
Now
You are:

(Like the thousands of bacteria in a drop of water;
Like the somethingorother in a speck of blood;
Like the million and one living things in the air around me)

Invisible and Irritating.

I read:
When we love the earth,
we are able to love ourselves more fully.

Until now, I used to believe this.

Water; Blood; Air
These, you represent.
I loved you, and then I hate you.
Now I love you

Selfishly and unfaithfully